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2021.10.24 11:58 Affectionate_Eye3961 You became everything you said you hated but loving you isn't something I can control.
Written unedited, on a whim; somehow.
There is no pain greater than that you feel when you are completely and utterly blindsided by the one person you genuinely believed would never do such things to you.
I don't think I will ever understand how you cut me off so cruelly after everything that transpired. I wish you could've felt the pain of your inaction. I wish you could've felt the worthlessness, confusion, borderline insanity I felt trying to discern how I got it so wrong with you, how you could do that to me after everything. Nothing will compare to the pain of you cutting me off, like a piece of trash you no longer felt you needed. That no longer fitted a purpose. Physical trauma is nothing compared to the emotional emptiness. The soul-crushing, mind-fucking - why?; how? That plagued the pits of my being night after night.
I crumbled into nothingness during those months as I lost every sense of independence, all control over my life, both physically and mentally, emotionally. I felt worthless, useless and discarded. I never thought I would lose all hope in life, until I had nothing left. I tried to take my own life and I am lucky Bel realised and called for help. I was admitted into hospital and gosh I met some characters, they were fucking resilient humans, you would've loved listening to their stories. I had my second surgery on my leg. Now I can walk again, after 4 months. Baby steps. I have started to breathe again.
My existence remains a mess, my depression is still rife, but I can feel the life slowly trickling back into my veins more and more everyday. I havn't been able to work or study, but waking up alive has been an achievement and I'm learning to be kinder to myself and be grateful for that strength; even if it sounds trivial. I have really focused on taking care of my skin, my body. I stopped eating and sleeping during those months. I lost 15kg and I'm slowly getting back to my healthy self. I'm trying to pick up the pieces, even if they're being held together by sticky tape. The amount of hours I spent writing, awake, for days - much of it nonsensical gibberish, trying to discern and comprehend your actions. You ripped out stitches of my heart that I didn't even know existed. Maybe one day I'll send those pages to you.
I will never understand how you left me like that, knowing how vulnerable I was. I will never understand truly, how you ended up being the worst of all, because I believed you when you said you wouldn't be that person. I believed you when you said you were a good man who loved me. I really did. Because I loved you and everything you were, or that I thought you were. Clearly, my insight was wrong. I feel a prick in my heart every-time you come into mind. A prick that sends a tidal wave of emotion through my body - anger, disappointment, confusion, love, happiness, sorrow. I know a good man exists within you but I can't say you are him yet. I have hope for you, I hope you prove me right. I hope you learn from your mistakes and become a better man. No woman should ever have to experience what you put me through. Please don't do that to her, whoever you are with.
I mourn the incredibly handsome, gentle, kind, hot-weird, quirky, smart, nerdy, funny, completely loveable man I fell so fucking madly in love with. Be him, not the man he became, in the end. Because the man I fell in love with has so much to offer the world, has so much value and light within him, even if he was never made to feel or believe it. That man was so special, even if he ended up tearing my soul in two. So I hope that he is still real because amidst the pain and ache, I want nothing but the best for you. Please take care of yourself J, you goofball. Stay safe and don't do anything silly. Your quirky soul will stick forever like glue in my mind, heart and spirit and with that, know, I will always love you, it's true.
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2021.10.24 11:58 Su_doNymm We dropped our first set ever, ETH Beyond Earth come check it out, it’s our introduction to the NFT world.
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2021.10.24 11:58 jacleric Art by Francisco Garces (aka Dibujante Nocturno)
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2021.10.24 11:58 EpiphanyWL I want to help
When I was a kid, I watched the first two seasons of young justice atleast 10 time each and it's my favourite TV show of all time. However, I'm from England and we don't have HBO Max here. I've been watching the show on some shady websites but obviously this won't help the show get renewed at all. Since I can't binge watch it on HBO Max, how would you all recommended me helping in getting the show a season 5?
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2021.10.24 11:58 SlavaChvi On ‘SNL,’ Emily Ratajowski and others appear in a Halloween talk…
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2021.10.24 11:58 jbizzle1984 Frankie is so scared for his second puppy shots :(
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2021.10.24 11:58 huckleberryfry Phoenix, Ak Chin, it’s going to great to see the boys here again. They were last here in 2017. Hopefully we get a full helping of cowboy songs and a great tribute to Marty Robbins while they’re at it. C’mon Bobby, let’s hear a breakout of Big Iron!
2021.10.24 11:58 Affectionate-Win8229 I'VE given up
I have been waiting and waiting but I think it's time I just give up and start a new account this time with more experience in the game and security with my account 💪💪💪 I hope all of you can recover your account as soon as possible ❤️and wish all the best 💜
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2021.10.24 11:58 ChurdFurts Let's go Brandon
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2021.10.24 11:58 MediocrePass4780 Air fuel ratio issue
Hi guys so I installed an air intake into my car yesterday and got an e tune. I’m only on the first map with my tuner but this tuner made a stage 1 tune for me before so he’s just doing a maf touch up for me. My main concern is my air fuel ratio when I started my car and it warmed up and getting close to operating temp was 13.55/ 15.27. Is that bad and something to be worried about?
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2021.10.24 11:58 YouLykeFishSticks Council gave me a Mal, and let me make my first ever Grief!
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2021.10.24 11:58 thomas_kilstrom Hearts For Justice - May the Truth be with you 🇺🇲 Hope to see you at Liberty House Fall Festival at 151 Wales Rd, Andover CT from 12-5 Pm🍂🎃
2021.10.24 11:58 fallon_borden Is a DIY Pi Zero W bluetooth extender even possible?
I have two pi zero Ws just waiting to be put to use. I can barely go from the living from the kitchen wearing Bluetooth headphones without them disconnecting. I've got some money and a MicroCenter nearby. I feel like I should be able to make this happen.
Making a wifi repeater has clearer instructions but I'm not sure how much this is apple and oranges. Bluetooth extenders are a thing, but am I just missing something on the DIY front?
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2021.10.24 11:58 PlushyFluffy21 24 [M4F] #Online Soft caring guy going through a journey, looking for that special someone to share it with.
So here's the part where I tell about myself! Physically, I've been told I have a cute, kind smile (by my therapist, does that count??) I have curly long hair (also allegedly cute by some reports) and I am slim trying to gain some muscle. I don't go for a traditionally manly look.
I am geeky, I can be very passionate about fiction, be it movies, shows, anime or the rare book. And lately I've been super into practicing yoga. I like giving my care and affection, always asking about your days and even your life's story, I don't shy away from deep conversations either. I hope to be one day that special someone who welcomes you home excitedly with a warm smile and cuddles to hear about your day, I want to be your friend as much as your adoring partner. Also be warned, I love me some emojis while chatting.
I am not a stranger to mental health struggles and so I understand and can relate to them very well, if you have similar experiences too.
As a shy introvert I learnt to explore the world through the brilliant mind's of others and their works, but the last years have been a journey for me to leave my shell, learn to open up and make new friends, to see the world with my own eyes. And so I still am in this journey c: I am trying to be a little better every day, physically and mentally, to find out what I can accomplish in this life through the struggles. To explore the beauty of life that I have shyly observed.
About you: I look for empathy and patience in a person, you are someone who tries to understand instead of judge others, and cares for those close to you. Your interests don't need to match mine at all, and I believe opposites often attract (huge bonus points if you enjoy being dominant intimately), more bonus points you can appreciate both masculinity as much as femininity in guy and don't comform to society's standards forced on us. But most all let me tell you if are a genuinely caring empathetic person, little demi me will prob fall for you hard, if not we could still become friends!
If you have read so far and are interested in chatting or would like to ask me anything else, shoot me a DM or chat. Would love to hear from you! Maybe tell me all about your fluffy friends if or what was the last movie/show that you really liked.
side note: I have a stable job and would be up for travelling to meet one day if things really got serious.
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2021.10.24 11:58 OrcsAreMongols Asian hunter eyes, hyper-chiseled asiatic features. Looks exactly like that hunter eyes Chinese male model posted the other day. Tell me whether you know of any cuckasoids who are as chiseled as this
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2021.10.24 11:58 subnonymous_ Tips on Improving posture for a student?
Hi! As a student, it's really hard for me to maintain a good posture especially since I'm still on online classes. I can rarely find time to do my usual pilates and I have to sit infront of the desk for 8-9 hours a day. Can you please give me some tips? Anything is fine, and also a good posture improvement program/ follow along video would be great!
Thanks a lot ❤️ (also, i have a rounded shoulders, anterior pelvic tilt, forward head and arch back if it helps)
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2021.10.24 11:58 All_Hail_Zebra_Ball Defeated a major test of strength and this happened to the axe
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2021.10.24 11:58 Chaosxmanticore15 (S1) If you were Tommy and you found out your best friend was secretly a vigilante putting arrows in people and taking lives...how would you react ?
Just watching over episode 1x16 where Tommy finds out oliver is the starling city vigilante and his reaction towards it got me thinking, if you were in Tommy's shoes how would you react to your best friend being this vigilante that kills and is deemed a dangerous individual by alot of people, would you be horrified or understanding or anything else ?
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2021.10.24 11:58 Bosskz Received my Death Star battle from u/lukemfrank Thanks!!
2021.10.24 11:58 agenerationofgraves The Politics of the Beasts - new single from experimental music project GENERATION OF GRAVES
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2021.10.24 11:58 Secretly007 Any Business Analysts Here?
I am thinking of a career as a Business Analyst (not sure what field yet though) and I have a few questions about it.
What field do you work in? How did you become a business analyst/how did you get your foot in the door? Are there any specific courses I should do (like uni degree, tafe cert) or some other way I can learn about it/get experience?
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2021.10.24 11:58 themadman0101 Don’t work in a Prison
Seriously. Like there’s other BETTER jobs you can work. The average life expectancy for a Correctional Officer is 55. Don’t ask me for a source. Just don’t work in a Prison. Simple as that.
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2021.10.24 11:58 mcloaf That's an interesting... word salad?
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